One of the biggest issues persons with chronic illnesses suffer from is not having enough monies to live on, yet alone to cover all of our medical expenses. Many of us have to rely on our SSI to cover our food, shelter, clothes, utilities, medicines, labwork, copays and travel expenses. What we receive is never enough to handle a third of these things. This is why you will find that many of us going without each month and or becoming homeless. That could mean not taking our needed medicines, eating healthy foods or eating at all. Not living with needed heat/air, fresh clean water and sometimes the necessary medical treatment that we need to survive. Many of us avoid going to the ER during emergencies or better yet utilizing ambulatory services because we just cannot afford them. This is sad but very true.
I am disabled and had to leave a job I absolutely loved 21 yrs ago. Going from a very nice two paycheck family to one is very difficult. Watching my amazing husband work two to three jobs at a time to make our ends meet is killing me more than my Chronic illnesses. The little monies I receive each month doesn’t even put a dent in my expenses. We have a strict budget that we adhere to but it changes all the time with each flare up I have. Just when we think we have a handle on it, something changes. This time it was an all of a sudden copay for a specialist that I have been going to for over 5 years. Usually with two insurances, one would offset the other, but not this time.
This has been a continuous factor with me will all of my specialist’s for as long as I can remember. Especially since I was finally added to my husband’s insurance. I experienced an emergency last week and was told to come into the doctors office on Friday and then again for a follow up appointment today. What we didn’t expect was to be hit with a copay issue. My husband and I looked at each other like two deer stuck in headlights. Both of us trying to decide who had the money and also which bill would not get paid this month. I looked at my husband when he put his debit card in the receptionist hand and felt even more of a burden to my family. We really don’t have anything to spare, but then she hit us with a double charge for both Friday and today. That hurt bad. Both of us will suffer from overdraft fees this month, meaning we will be paying a lot more than what was paid today. Sucks for us big time. So what do you think my next step will be? Me too. 😣☹
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Peace and blessings to you always and forevermore. 💜❄💜❄💜
I just wanted to share with you guys about the severe neuropathy flare that I’ve been experiencing for the last 2 1/2 months. So severe that I have seen three doctors just to get some answers and some relief for my whole body swelling to the point it seeped fluid.
My legs and feet were so hard that they didn’t even pit. My husband and I didn’t think it was fluid at first. It literally felt like I had fifty pound weights attached to each leg. I have to be assisted with everything including washing and eating. This pain is extreme. My hands were the worst. They literally have no feeling in them. Typing this is very painful but I had to share my experience. My hands felt like they have frostbite and they are on fire at the same time. Rubbing them didn’t help. The only relief was to submerge them into scalding hot water. This kept me up all night. Each joint was so painful that I couldn’t even hold a fork or cup. The main problem was trying to get the doctors to understand what I was explaining to them.
So the final diagnosis was both a rheumatoid arthritis and neuropathy flare at the same time. The treatment was to put me back on 10 mg of Prednisone again. I had been weaned off of Prednisone 5 weeks before after have taken it for 20 years for my Chronic Sarcoidosis. I was also prescribed Baclofen, which is a muscle relaxer for the severe spasms that started with the flare.
The swelling has receded some and my mobility is very strained because of the trauma to my body. The doctors have all stated that is all they can do because my body is too sick. This all to say, please keep me in your prayers.
Marilyn’s Fight For Life Sarcoidosis Advocate/Warrior
Each day I wake up wondering how I am going to make it through the day. And at night I wonder if it’s my last. The pain is excruciating and the guilt of what I’m putting my family through is overwhelming. But I continue to fight on. Trusting that this too will pass. I find myself reading Psalms 71 over and over again, for in my lifetime Yahuah my Elohim has proven to be my doctor when I am weak. I give my all over to Yahuah and ask for healing from this debilitating disease and ask that he guides those that I entrust for medical care.
I have to see a neurosurgeon in July about scheduling surgical procedures on both my C-spine and my L-spine. Both areas are affecting my nerves and spinal cord. Scared? Yes I am, because of the possibilities of paralysis. Right now I am truly dependent on my family support for what many might take for granted; and also a walker to get around. I am looking into acquiring help for my entrance to be made handicap accessible.
As always I ask for prayers and I will continue to pray for you.
Peace and blessings to you always and forever more,