Each day I wake up wondering how I am going to make it through the day. And at night I wonder if it’s my last. The pain is excruciating and the guilt of what I’m putting my family through is overwhelming. But I continue to fight on. Trusting that this too will pass. I find myself reading Psalms 71 over and over again, for in my lifetime Yahuah my Elohim has proven to be my doctor when I am weak. I give my all over to Yahuah and ask for healing from this debilitating disease and ask that he guides those that I entrust for medical care.
I have to see a neurosurgeon in July about scheduling surgical procedures on both my C-spine and my L-spine. Both areas are affecting my nerves and spinal cord. Scared? Yes I am, because of the possibilities of paralysis. Right now I am truly dependent on my family support for what many might take for granted; and also a walker to get around. I am looking into acquiring help for my entrance to be made handicap accessible.
As always I ask for prayers and I will continue to pray for you.
Peace and blessings to you always and forever more,
#MarilynsFightForLifeKICKSarcoidosisCampaign #Fighting4ACure #LivingWithChronicPain #LivingWithAnInvisibleIllness #SARCOIDOSISAWARENESS #SarcoidosisWarrior #RareDisease #SupportSarcoidosisResearch #ASongForLife #FoundationforSarcoidosisResearch #FIBROMYALGIA
This is a follow-up to the Cinemark Christiana Movie Theatre debacle.
I called the theatre the next morning after being humiliated the night before and spoke to a representative who intern stated that I would be receiving a call from their manager (Stephanie) on Monday. Well that didn’t happen. I called this evening around 4:30 pm and actually spoke to Stephanie herself. After explaining to her how I was treated, she told me “where I was wrong.” She said that I, indeed was sitting in someone else’s seat.? Wrong! I understood the meaning of reserved handicapped seating and I was indeed sitting in a seat that I had reserved. Stephanie also stated that they sat those that was supposed to sit in our seats elsewhere, and that the usher was supposed to tell us this. NOT! LIES BEGAT LIES BEGAT LIES! Stephanie then went on to say that I had no right to raise my voice to her. I rebutted with, why Not? You are not listening to what I am trying to explain to you about what actually happened. She then apologized for her staff not alerting me to reassigning the other moviegoers Stephanie promised me a refund, in which I was prepared to give her my confirmation number so that it could be reimbursed to my card. Stephanie said that was not possible and that I had to come back to the movie theater and show her my digital receipt. Again reiterating that it would be hard for me to do so tonight because of my disability, so may I email it to her. Of course she said no. Stating that I must present the ticket in person in order to receive my refund out of their petty cash fund due to the ticket being purchased via Fandango. She said that it would be okay to send a copy of the ticket with my husband. Stephanie stated, “that if she was not there, then she would leave word with the other managers to refund my money. Hubby went there and the staff denied our refund. A manager named Carlos specifically, spoke very negatively to hubby.
I am venting this because I already deal with being handicapped because of Sarcoidosis and what it has done to my life, but to be humiliated when I was in the right for sitting in a seat designated for the handicapped. Especially, when being asked to move for those who were not. #Fighting4ACure #LivingWithChronicPain #LivingWithAnInvisibleIllness #SarcoidosisAwareness #LivingWithChronicPain #TheRightsOfTheHandicap #Fighting4OurRights #MistreatmentOfTheHandicapped
Here it is 16 years after my diagnosis and the knowledge of what Sarcoidosis is or where its origin began is still a mystery. Why is this? I know for a fact that we Warriors are still fighting for our lives. We are still spreading Sarcoidosis awareness throughout our communities and on social media. We are still wearing our purple and holding our events. We are still obtaining proclamations from our governors of state. So what is the hold up? Why aren’t there more specialists out there to treat the many symptoms and problems caused by the disease and the medicines used to treat it? Why are we still not being treated in the emergency rooms across the country properly? Why isn’t there funding to find a cure? The answer is simple. They don’t care because it is not happening to them. At least that is my opinion. They are not suffering from the debilitating pain. They are not feeling their lives slip away. They are not dealing with the financial strains that the disease brings on the family. They are not dealing with the lengthy and costly misdiagnosis processes. They are not being looked at like they are crazy.
No energy. Tired of being tired. Pain beyond comprehension. Frustration and loss of self. Financial strain. Loss of friends and family who do not get what Sarcoidosis is or what it does to you.
If anyone else has an answer, please tell me.
Peace and blessings,
United front against Sarcoidosis. We’re fighting for a cure!
My last post explained how I have been feeling these last few weeks.
I’ve been to see my Rheumatologist and she confirmed that my blood work shows that my flare-ups with both my Sarcoidosis and RA are consistent with my symptoms. So she increased my dosage of Leflunomide to 20mg a day and suggested that when I see my Pulmonologist he do the same with my dosage of Prednisone. I’m already taking 15mg a day. I really don’t want the increase to happen, so I asked around to get suggestions on how to alleviate this pain more holistically and I have taken their suggestions to heart. So now I take Tumeric tabs 3 times a day and I drink apple cinnamon water all day. It’s great!😊 You need 1 apple, 1 cinnamon stick, ice, water and a 2 quart pitcher. Cut up the apple and add it to the pitcher with ice cubes, cinnamon stick and water. That’s it! 😃 It’s great, tasty and nutritious. It boosts your metabolism, provides you with vitamins and nutrients while eliminating your sugar intake.
It’s also suppose to help with the joint pain, but we will see how that goes.
Okay, my hands are throbbing so I’m going to cut this short. Take care everyone and
I’ll keep you in my prayers.