One of the biggest issues persons with chronic illnesses suffer from is not having enough monies to live on, yet alone to cover all of our medical expenses. Many of us have to rely on our SSI to cover our food, shelter, clothes, utilities, medicines, labwork, copays and travel expenses. What we receive is never enough to handle a third of these things. This is why you will find that many of us going without each month and or becoming homeless. That could mean not taking our needed medicines, eating healthy foods or eating at all. Not living with needed heat/air, fresh clean water and sometimes the necessary medical treatment that we need to survive. Many of us avoid going to the ER during emergencies or better yet utilizing ambulatory services because we just cannot afford them. This is sad but very true.
I am disabled and had to leave a job I absolutely loved 21 yrs ago. Going from a very nice two paycheck family to one is very difficult. Watching my amazing husband work two to three jobs at a time to make our ends meet is killing me more than my Chronic illnesses. The little monies I receive each month doesn’t even put a dent in my expenses. We have a strict budget that we adhere to but it changes all the time with each flare up I have. Just when we think we have a handle on it, something changes. This time it was an all of a sudden copay for a specialist that I have been going to for over 5 years. Usually with two insurances, one would offset the other, but not this time.
This has been a continuous factor with me will all of my specialist’s for as long as I can remember. Especially since I was finally added to my husband’s insurance. I experienced an emergency last week and was told to come into the doctors office on Friday and then again for a follow up appointment today. What we didn’t expect was to be hit with a copay issue. My husband and I looked at each other like two deer stuck in headlights. Both of us trying to decide who had the money and also which bill would not get paid this month. I looked at my husband when he put his debit card in the receptionist hand and felt even more of a burden to my family. We really don’t have anything to spare, but then she hit us with a double charge for both Friday and today. That hurt bad. Both of us will suffer from overdraft fees this month, meaning we will be paying a lot more than what was paid today. Sucks for us big time. So what do you think my next step will be? Me too. 😣☹
Anyway, thanks for letting me vent. Peace and blessings to you always and forevermore. 💜❄💜❄💜
So it’s been a while since I checked in. Last time I was experiencing a major flare-up which turned out to be a combination of neurosarcoidosis and rheumatoid arthritis. Very, very painful and life threatening. After being told that there was really nothing that can be done for me anymore except to keep me comfortable, because my body is very sick; I prayed and asked the Most High to help me. I am still fighting on, but to be truthful, my body is tired.
I am not able to get the surgery to fix my spine. The pain and spine specialist stated that pain meds are what’s needed to keep me comfortable. And most recently, my Pulmonologist stated that it’s time for me to start the process for a lung transplant. I am scared y’all. All of my doctor’s are in agreement. When we told, my husband and I looked at each other in disbelief. My husbands first question was ab
Waking up in pain everyday isn’t how I envisioned my life to be. Diagnosed 18 years ago and been living debilitating pain that no one could possibly handle on their own. Prescribed medicine’s do not work for my good. They just caused more problems, more pain.
Waking up in pain is not what I envisioned my married life would be. I hurt because I can’t be the wife that my hubby Karl needs. Instead of me taking care of him, he instead takes care of me. Causing an extra burden to be placed on his shoulders because of my stupid illness hurts my heart. Watching him age before my eyes. Saddening. Hurtful. Regretful. Sorrowful. In his eyes he loves me and I am thankful. Karl honors our vows to each other. Honestly, that speaks volumes to his character. Cares for me like no other. He is a blessed man of The Most High that was created just for me. I am blessed because he chose me. Selah
Waking up in pain each day is not what I envisioned my life as a parent to be. Diagnosed when my children were 12, 9 and 2 months respectively. Just babies themselves having to take on the role of caretaker to their own mother. Missing out on a lot because of me. Having one resent me because of it. Missing out on caring for the baby a lot because of the pain. They are 30 (KJ), 27 (Ka’miko Mai’) and 18 (Kimora-Lynn) now and I can truly say I am blessed that they chose me as mom from heaven. They make me fight each day to live. Even with the pain, I could not have made it this far without them. There are many others in my shoes that do not have the support system that I have and I pray for them everyday. But I am so thankful that my family loves me and stays in my corner. The Most High seen favor with me and blessed me with another daughter. My daughter Hadar, KJs wife, not only loves me but she is also an active advocate for me and Sarcoidosis. She helps me with my health choices and also with my life. She educates others about Sarcoidosis, making them understand what I struggle with everyday. She loves me and that is such a blessing.
Chronic pain, living with Sarcoidosis, living with an Invisible illness, living with an incurable debilitating disease and finally, living with a rare disease; this is my life. I fight through the pain, I smile through the pain, I live through the pain.