Feeling like my world’s coming to an end…

So it’s been a while since I checked in. Last time I was experiencing a major flare-up which turned out to be a combination of neurosarcoidosis and rheumatoid arthritis. Very, very painful and life threatening. After being told that there was really nothing that can be done for me anymore except to keep me comfortable, because my body is very sick; I prayed and asked the Most High to help me. I am still fighting on, but to be truthful, my body is tired.

I am not able to get the surgery to fix my spine. The pain and spine specialist stated that pain meds are what’s needed to keep me comfortable. And most recently, my Pulmonologist stated that it’s time for me to start the process for a lung transplant. I am scared y’all. All of my doctor’s are in agreement. When we told, my husband and I looked at each other in disbelief. My husbands first question was ab